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PRK Laser Surgery

tracey — Sat, 12 Jun 2010 11:38:56 +0000

I had PRK laser eye surgery yesterday afternoon and now can see!! The doctor said he didn’t feel comfortable performing normal lasik on me because of my stigmatisms in both eyes. This was fine with me because to be honest, I didn’t like the idea of him cutting flaps in my eyes.

So far, this has been amazing! I can now see fairly decently, and with PRK my vision will get increasingly better over time.

Lyndsey has been so supportive and was the one who encouraged me to go for it… I am so glad she did :o) Never having to wear glasses or contacts again is priceless!

Chely Wright

tracey — Thu, 20 May 2010 02:36:09 +0000

Just got done watching Chely Wright on today’s Oprah. All I can think of is “Wow!” She seems like a truly beautiful person both inside and out. It must of taken an insane amount of courage to come out in the conservative country music community. I’m am truly proud of her. I especially loved the way her father was so supportive of her. I have to admit. I am somewhat envious of their relationship. I wish my own father could show the love and humility her father has…

10 Years Ago

tracey — Wed, 14 Apr 2010 04:03:51 +0000

I cannot believe that Saturday will be 10 years since my mom passed away. It seems like both a lifetime ago, and just yesterday… if that makes any sense. Ten years since I last heard her voice and held her hand. A lot has changed in 10 years… and all for the better. It’s not that I’m at all happy that my mom passed, but her passing gave me the courage to realize what’s important in life… Following your heart and letting go of what other people think. So far so good. At the age of 31 (which I will turn on the 23rd), I am more confident than ever and have no regrets to speak of.

I believe everything we experience is an opportunity for growth and makes us who we are today. So even in my mother’s death, I have learned how to fully live.

Ginger

tracey — Sat, 20 Mar 2010 03:10:13 +0000

Lyndsey’s in love (or more like lust) with Ginger the weather girl on channel 5 Chicago, NBC news. Every time she comes on the television to give the forecast, I have to listen to Lyndsey go on about how hot she is! What kind of name is Ginger anyway? Sounds like a stripper! Oh well… I guess she is kind of hot!

Joni Mitchell’s ‘Both Sides Now’

tracey — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 05:31:08 +0000

I can’t stop listening to Joni Mitchell’s ‘Both Sides Now’ on my Ipod. It makes me want to cry. Sometimes I just need a good sad song. Here are the lyrics:

Rows and flows of angel hair, and icecream castles in the air, and feathered canyons everywhere,
I’ve looked at clouds that way,
but now they only block the sun.
They rain and snow on everyone.
So many things I would have done,
but clouds got in my way.

I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now,
from up and down, and still somehow,
it’s clouds illusions I recal.
I really don’t know clouds…at all.

Moons and Junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel
as every fairy tale comes real; I’ve looked at love that way.
But now it’s just another show. You leave ‘em laughing when you go
and if you care, don’t let them know, don’t give yourself away.

I’ve looked at love from both sides now,
from give and take, and still somehow
it’s love’s illusions I recall.
I really don’t know love at all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud, to say “I love you” right out loud,
dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I’ve looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads,
they say I’ve changed.
Something’s lost but something’s gained in living every day.

I’ve looked at life from both sides now,
from win and lose, and still somehow
it’s life’s illusions I recall.
I really don’t know life at all.

So true…

Teddy

tracey — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 13:47:32 +0000

My spoiled pup, Teddy, is a pain in the *ss. He woke me up at 7:30 this morning to take him outside and now I can’t fall back to sleep. Doesn’t he know it’s Saturday!!! The best part is he goes back upstairs and jumps in the bed next to Lyndsey… totally taking my spot! I always tell him, “Good thing you’re cute otherwise you’d be out on the street looking for a new home!”

The Bachelor

tracey — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 05:17:52 +0000

Lyndsey and I are currently watching ‘The Bachelor’… and you may be wondering why two lesbians are watching this show, but it’s sort of like road kill… once it’s on the TV, you can’t help but look. Now if you’ve ever seen the show, you know that all those “potential wives” in one house generally turns into a cat fight. But this season, all I have to say is MICHELLE. PSYCHOOOOO!!!! Constantly threatening to leave, borderline personality-like moods, and just plain scary! I’m so glad Jake asked her to leave. Poor guy. It’s hard to handle one woman, let alone 10!

No Regrets

tracey — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 04:52:01 +0000

I have said it before, and I will say it again… I always follow my heart. In situations in which I was unsure of what choice to make, I have always gone with what brings my heart the most peace. To clarify, this should not be confused with taking the easy route. If that was the case, I’d be married to some poor chap with 2 and 1/2 kids by now. This just means (regardless of all the external noise around me), I have always made decisions based on what brought serenity to my soul. And I got to tell you… So far so good :) I am 30-years-old and I can honestly say I have no regrets in my life… Not even close. Unfortunately, I don’t think there are many people who can say the same.

Shane

tracey — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 00:17:12 +0000

I just got done watching an episode of the L Word, Season 6 and I’ll never understand why/how the writers made Shane’s character out to be the Fonzie of all lesbians. I understand that everyone has her own particular taste… some lesbians are attracted to butch women, some to feminine women, others to androgynous women; however, Shane’s character attracts ALL women… even the so-called straight ones. This doesn’t make any sense to me, particularly because I don’t find her the least bit attractive. I know some lesbians think she’s sexy, but I find it a little far-fetched that she has some supernatural powers to make every woman fall in-love with her. Besides, she always looks like she could use a shower!!! Sorry Shane lovers! LOL

9/11

tracey — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 05:26:23 +0000

I can’t believe it’s been 8 years since 9/11. Eight years since millions of Americans all across this country stood paralyzed in front of their television sets watching the horrid events of the day play out in front of them. Eight years since thousands of Americans lost their brothers, sisters, sons, daughters, parents, and friends. Eight years to try and get used to the big hole I see everytime I look at the New York City skyline.

A lot has changed in the past 8 years. At the time I was just a poor student my first year in grad school. I was still in denial of my sexuality and still dating my ex-boyfriend. It had only been a little over a year since my mother had passed away and I wondered what she would have thought. Hell, I didn’t even know what I thought! The only thing I did know for sure was that I was grateful the events of the day had not directly affected my immediate family…